Pain

It just hit me, real good
Realising what all happened
Slowly my world opens my sight
The trauma entvolting
Let bits and pieces come in closer
My conciousness is flowing bad shit

I am aware of the depth of my pain
Caused by a very disturbed human
Wich I've trusted with my life
Totaly shattered by his dark evil being

Why did I let that happen to me
Was I there at that time
Is my mind playing tricks on me
Was he for real or just a dark cloud blocking my vision

It's been caged by too much feelings
Put away for a better time to deal with
But I can't stop it no more
It's freeing itself and wants to reveal
No escape possible the fear the dark is out

Triggered by recent events happening
A Psychopath on the killing
Video's of a raging idiot does it
There it is
No more a clouded mind just reality

Pain, hurt and suffering of a rare kind
Acknowledge what's happend
I've really been shattered
But I'm still standing
Facing my past

Feeling the earth under my feet
Hearing my breathing
Standing my ground
Aware of me living in this presence
Accepting my wounds to be healed

Embracing the sun giving me the strenght
The insightes falling in my lap
Courage taking over the fear
I'm stronger than ever and I've survived
Let my life begin it's new path
With new born trust and hope

©Jadja